The vocabulary of missing feelings: Repugration
Repugration = a strange combination of repugnance and admiration. As I was reading about the I sraeli's Prime Minister, Benjamin Netanyahu, plan of cancelling the primaries in his own party, which he has been dominating for most of the last 20 years , my heart and mind were filled with repugration. It was not just the man's shameless cunning. It was his endless, infinite, all-consuming ambition. This image is quoted from Wikipedia. It is in the Public's domain .